Monday, August 8, 2011

In which I review a book that correctly claims America is a religion, but is also pure trash.

Americanism: The Fourth Great Western ReligionAmericanism: The Fourth Great Western Religion by David Gelernter
My rating: 2 of 5 stars
This book speaks the truth about the fact that America should be thought of as a religion first and foremost. The problem with the book is that it is written from the perspective of a devout neoconservative Americanist who feels at liberty to browbeat the reader into worshiping as he does. I couldn't finish this book, because despite the author's obvious intelligence, it was full of willfully ignorant calls to blind faith. In short, the author is correct in his basic assumptions, but he is a typical piece-of-shit death worshiper.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Man and Nature: A Calculus Beyond My Understanding

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I stand on the front walk to my house and look around. I am seeing certain things as if for the first time, and I am awestruck:

Telephone lines (or are they power lines?) slung between tall, slender, unadorned, wooden totems, strictly for the purpose of transmitting information (or energy) all along the little street.

Metal antennae attached to rooftops. A satellite dish.

All of these comprise the infovascular system (if I may) of our species -- an extension of our bodies, as Leonardo da Vinci would have said. I say they are an extension of our minds -- not an alien, unnatural blight on the landscape, but an inevitable result of the advent of the frontal lobe in humans.

Chimneys spring from rooftops as well, venting whatever we cannot use and do not want in our houses. I do not normally see these, rather taking them for granted a hair shy of one hundred percent of the time. They are cowlicks on the structures we have built for ourselves in our image. Two windows and a door make a face. Buildings are large cloaks which we can move around in. Very roomy.

I look up at the birds. The swallows with their pointed wingtips beat the air faster than a fish beats water with fins but slower than an electron orbits a nucleus. They trawl for unseen airborne insects. I imagine these birds closing off their windpipes and throats, catching as many insects as they can -- their flight patterns governed by a calculus far beyond my human understanding -- until the sensation of insect bodies, lodged in saliva, accumulates enough to warrant, ahem, swallowing.

The birds flock together, but individually you can see them ruminating. "Should I follow now? How about now? Yes, now. I will join my familiars. I am my own bird. I miss my familiars. I am my own bird, for my attention wanes." They flit from tree to tree. They fly over my head.

They land on a telephone line. Or power line. Unlike me, they do not question it. The wire is part of their real, natural world.

The antennae and bricks of the buildings are hard -- much harder than tree bark, about as hard as very old rock -- belong here too.









Friday, July 8, 2011

The Space Shuttle: Our Tower of Babel

I find myself genuinely mournful of the space shuttle program. I was born in 1980; the program launched in 1981. It was always there for me.

Space travel will continue, but the space shuttle program was more than that. It was a symbol of something strident and hopeful.

The space shuttle program, in my mind's eye, was the white spaceplane, the NASA logo, the American flag emblazoned on spacesuits filled with heroes. My heroes.

The space shuttle program was the televised launches. The countdown, the ignition, the launch, the blinding blaze of rockets, the disappearing of a handful of astronauts into the heavens.

The space shuttle program was our Tower of Babel. We built it for science, yes, but really we built it to reach God.

I was in first grade when the space shuttle Challenger exploded before it could even reach low orbit. It blew up right there before the eyes of hundreds of thousands of people. A teacher had been on-board. A television was wheeled into the classroom so we could watch the coverage. I remember my teacher, Mrs. Lindsay, crying a little and holding a tissue to her face.

Now, as I read the New York Times coverage of the last launch taking place this very moment, I am surprised to find myself crying a little. I will never go up in a space shuttle. I never knew it mattered to me until now.





Wednesday, May 4, 2011

On Stories, Origins, Disagreement, God, and Other Things

The following was written in real time on Twitter.

The sculptor Auguste Rodin left masses of rough, untouched stone intact on his finely carved sculptures -- to remind us where it came from.
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To agree is beside the point. Just to be is the point.
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We can meet on the mountain -- the greater substance from which our lives spring -- and compare what we made from it.
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We are each given a stone from the same mountain. We each chisel something different. We sometimes mistake our sculptures for the mountain.
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Stories within stories. Facts bending like wheat in the winds of imagination. Consciousness was here first.
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God is about unity. That's all he was ever for. He is just as real as any of your imaginings.
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When the rain comes down, it touches the whole town. That is the story we all inhabit, and it belongs to a being greater than ourselves.
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Those who allow others to have their stories, differ though they might, are brave.
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When we demand that others think the way we do, it is like trying to force others into our homes with us.
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When we violently disagree with each other's stories, our violence is derived from the terror of being alone in our private stories.
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Some of our stories are similar. When we recognize that, we cling to each other, craving familiarity and the end of loneliness.
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A life can go through many stages, each beginning and ending with a spectacular coup against the ego, taking place where cameras cannot go.
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To change your mind is a great adventure. You will struggle, bleed, fail and try again. To change your mind is to die and be reborn.
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When our stories fail us, we grieve. When we, in such uncommon cases, expatriate to new stories, we suffer.
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There is nothing wrong with stories, just as there is nothing wrong with a rose in a windstorm. We choose destruction over loss of identity.
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We may discuss alternate stories with civil tongues, but when the shit hits the fan, we revert to our fondest stories, facts be damned.
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Our stories are more important to us than mere facts. We readily bend or replace facts that do not serve our stories. All of us do this.
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Our veins are filled with stories. We breathe and eat stories. When someone threatens to supplant our stories with new stories, we resist.
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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Heart Spasms

Just had a physical heart spasm. At least I think it was. Don't nobody panic, it's over. Yes, I should quit smoking. No, I don't have health insurance, and no this is not a "wake-up call" for me.

OK, yes it is a wake-up call. And maybe I will quit those goddamn cigarettes. But I don't think those things are all that are bothering my heart.

Love.

Money.

People and their opinions.

My heroes dying and being replaced by humans.

The maddening questions: Am I wrong about this or that? Seriously, am I wrong, when I think and see and say and do things? Am I just making shit up?

Are all of the windows between me and the outside world mere paintings? Did I paint the scenes to trick my mind's eye? To fend off the darkness, the isolation of being trapped inside a human?

These questions bother me a lot. My breath grows shallow. There is a wailing in the distance. I drown it out with music. When I turn off the music, the wailing is closer. I turn the music back on.

Give us this day our daily chemicals, so that we might live in peace with the shadows.
I think they call it creeping panic.

There is no redeeming positive message in this post. It's just me and my abuse of a keyboard.
Changes need to be made.