Do you realize how gripped you are with fear? Do you know you can do anything you want - at least in comparison to what you are doing?
I love Saul Williams. His song "Coded Language" has saved my life. Gave it meaning, enriched it, reinvigorated it - dozens of times. An apt excerpt:
"Your current frequencies of understanding outweigh that which has been given for you to understand.
"The current standard is the equivalent of an adolescent restricted to the diet of an infant.
"The rapidly changing body would acquire dysfunctional and deformative symptoms and could not properly mature on a diet of apple sauce and crushed pears."
Listen to the whole track if you want.
That whole idea - that we are accidentally living life normally when we could be living it extraordinarily and making the extraordinary normal - is one of my motives for organizing Westward Invasion 2009.
Another motivation is that the United States is often pooh-poohed as too domestic for any self-respecting traveler to bother with.
In fact, some people think the United States is actually five or nine different countries bundled into one monolithic beast of a bureaucracy. In fact, people are different wherever you go in this country. I want to talk to them and see all their secret gardens, don't you?
Besides, even if you think you already know the U.S., consider that "A fish knows not wetness for wetness is all it knows. Make friends with whales and birds to learn water."
As you were.
Or as you want to be.
